Set in the years 1840 – 1912, Namita Gokhale’s new novel ‘Things to Leave Behind’ brings alive the mixed legacy of the British Raj. The third in her Himalayan series, it evokes the breath-taking beauty of the Kumaon region. Set in a past we have not quite left behind, it chronicles the struggle for love and freedom of three generations of Kumaoni women and the emergence of a fragile modernity at a time of intense change.
Things to Leave Behind: The last novel in the Himalayan trilogy

The book chronicles the mixed legacy of the British Indian past.

The strong and enigmatic woman characters who are at the heart of Things To Leave Behind

Things To Leave Behind evokes the landscape, the ferns and flowers, trees and clouds, of Kumaon.

At the heart of the novel lies one singular painting: a portrait of love, longing and courage.

The story brings a not-so-distant past to life.

The history of rail transport in India began in 1853, forever changing the history of the subcontinent.

Forming a bridge between the past and the future

Witness nature like never before.


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The Untold Vajpayee: An Excerpt
Something Is Afoot
15 May 1996. A man in his seventies alighted from an Ambassador car, paused to steel himself against a spasm of vertigo, wiped his broad forehead in the sweltering heat of summertime Delhi with a handkerchief, and began walking towards the office of the President of India.
Raisina Hill, which houses the stately, imposing offices of the federal government, simmered in the sun. For want of shade, even the pigeons had receded into roof voids. The old man’s baggy dhoti didn’t conceal his slightly faltering gait, and though he was panting mildly, his face had the relaxed composure of a man just about to break into laughter, his eyes half closed. Affecting restraint, the clean-shaven man with oiled grey hair muttered to his companion in a soft, conspiratorial tone that was quite uncharacteristic of his oratorical self: ‘Bhai, maamla gadbad hai (something is afoot).’
Atal Bihari Vajpayee was fond of such Orwellian doublespeak, which very often left people perplexed and scurrying to decipher the meaning. Since he knew through experience that no such effort made any good sense, his son-in-law, Ranjan Bhattacharya— Vajpayee’s companion on this hot May afternoon—didn’t bother to inquire further. He preferred to wait and see.
Vajpayee and his humble entourage had left his Raisina Road home just after lunch to meet President Shankar Dayal Sharma, who had invited him to discuss the formalities of forming the next government. The just-concluded national elections had thrown up a fractured verdict with no party in a position to create a government on its own or with its prepoll allies. The Hindu right-wing Bharatiya Janata Party, led by Vajpayee, had emerged as the single biggest constituent in the 543-member Lok Sabha, or Lower House of the Indian Parliament, winning 161 seats. In the run-up to the polls, the BJP had said that it wouldn’t stake any claim to form the government unless it had 220–225 seats in the Lok Sabha. But now, it had a new agenda: to keep the Third Front, a loose term for a grouping of non-BJP, nonCongress parties, out.
The Congress party, the incumbent that had ruled India for several decades, had won only 140 seats and the rest of the seats were divided among a constellation of political outfits, several of which saw the BJP as a pariah. This was why Vajpayee had no inkling of the responsibility that would befall him when he drove to the sprawling Rashtrapati Bhavan, home to the viceroys in the days of the British Raj. The idea was to offer a perfunctory gesture of claiming to form the next government. The BJP was not exactly confident of getting the numbers to ensure a simple majority in the Lok Sabha, 272 seats, with the help of non-Congress, non-Left parties. Still, there was a flicker of hope that in politics, there was always a way to turn adversities into advantages. The BJP, for its part, was ready to reelect Congressman Shivraj Patil as the Speaker if the Congress agreed to abstain from a trust vote of Vajpayee’s government. It also didn’t expect various allies to come together—as they would soon, to form what later came to be known as the United Front (UF) government.
Vajpayee’s car was driven by Majeed, who has been the BJP heavyweight’s chauffeur for a while. Also in the car was a peon of Vajpayee’s. Ranjan Bhattacharya, still an unfamiliar name in Delhi’s power circles, had begun showing signs that he would be the seventy-two-year-old politician’s eyes and ears in the years to come. Vajpayee trusted him, but still called the thirteen-year-long husband of his adopted daughter, Namita (also known as ‘Gunnu’), ‘Bengali babu’ or ‘Mukherjee bhai’. The BJP veteran was terrible with remembering people’s names, unless they were his buddies from his younger days. He even called his daughter ‘Namrita’ at times and had to be reminded her name was ‘Namita’. But neither Gunnu nor Ranjan minded.
Vajpayee returned less than half an hour later after his meeting with Sharma with a file in his hand. He stayed silent for several minutes. Then he told Bhattacharya that he was carrying a letter from the President requesting him to take the oath of office as the next prime minister of India. Sharma, who was fond of Vajpayee, had even specified the time of the swearing-in, after consulting priests for the auspicious moment. Vajpayee had sensed that his visit was more than just a ceremonial one from the reception he got as soon as he arrived at the presidential palace. He guessed that ‘something was afoot’ and the reverence on display at the gates was confirmation that the President was on his side.
From the Rashtrapati Bhavan, Vajpayee drove back to announce the presidential nod to his party and the public. What followed was disbelief among rival politicians who were busy cobbling a post-poll alliance to secure a simple majority in the House. The walls along the corridors of power clamoured with whispers of shock and gossip.
The next day, Vajpayee became the tenth prime minister of India, a watershed moment for his party, which had the ignominy of winning a mere two seats in the Lok Sabha twelve years earlier. Back then, Congress Prime Minister Rajiv Gandhi had poked fun at the BJP members in the Lok Sabha using the famous family planning slogan of the time: ‘Hum Do, Humare Do (We Two, Our Two).’ Pundits would later attribute the BJP’s 1996 victory partly to the soaring popularity of its prime ministerial candidate, Vajpayee.
Hoping to attract support from other parties, Vajpayee made a speech to the nation, outlining the BJP’s priorities. He argued that inviting the party that had the maximum number of seats to create the next government was the most constitutionally correct decision. He also stressed that the post-election camaraderie between several parties in the Opposition had a single-point agenda: to stop the BJP at any cost.
His speech was powerfully evocative and was meant to establish his credentials as a level-headed leader of the country, someone who was a breakaway from the usual mould of Hindu nationalist BJP leaders, someone who was more secular in his thinking:
India is an ancient civilisation. It has always had different sects and religious practices. We do not limit ourselves to one God or one Prophet or a single book. We are a multi-religious country, and we believe in the equality of all religious faiths. It is because of this that we have never had any tension, leave alone a violent struggle, on the correct path to achieve a realisation of God. ‘Sarva panth samabhav’, or equal respect to all faiths, is part of our lives. India never was, and never will be, a theocratic state . . . what happened in Ayodhya on 6th December 1992 was not the result of any pre-planned conspiracy. If problems related with religion are not resolved for long periods of time, then the result is what happened at Ayodhya . . . It is hardly necessary to recall that immediately after the advent of Islam in West Asia, the first mosque was built in Kerala, then ruled by a Hindu Raja. In like manner, soon after the crucifixion of Jesus Christ, the first Church was established in India. These manifestations of different faiths are living symbols of our secular traditions. We will maintain these traditions.
The reactions to his speech in the media were largely sympathetic. An editorial in the Indian Express soon after suggested that ‘Vajpayee appears to have successfully diluted BJP’s untouchability among the people, even if he has not been able to translate that mood for the political classes’. It also added, ‘Even if he loses the battle, he may end up winning the war.’
Vajpayee’s speeches in the last week of May, delivered on the floor of the Lok Sabha during the trust vote on his government, were even more riveting. In his opening note, he recalled how he used to sit in the opposition benches when Pandit Jawaharlal Nehru was prime minister (he entered Parliament for the first time in the second Lok Sabha in 1957) and how his party (earlier called the Bharatiya Jana Sangh, or BJS) had grown in strength and popularity to become the biggest constituent in the House while the Congress had diminished in electoral prowess over the years. Extolling the transformation under way in the political dynamics of the country, he said he was glad that winds of change were sweeping across the country.
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Thoroughly researched, supported by hard facts and accompanied by inside stories and anecdotes, insightful interviews and archival photographs, The Untold Vajpayee will open a window to the life and times of a poet-politician.
Penguin Random House India is thrilled to announce the acquisition of The Sacred Sword by Hindol Sengupta
About the book:
The book is a riveting, first of its kind historical fiction based on the life, teachings and battles of Guru Gobind Singh, the 10th and last living guru of the Sikh faith. A poet, philosopher, theologian and legendary warrior, Gobind Singh redefined the landscape of India and transformed its history. This book, the first ever historical fiction written on him, is being published on the 350th birth anniversary of Guru Gobind Singh. This is also the first fiction from best-selling non-fiction writer Hindol Sengupta.
“Guru Gobind Singh is one of the most captivating figures of Indian history. The Game of Thrones seems like a petulant skirmish once you start to unravel Sikh history. This book is the beginning of my exploration into this history and I am thrilled to start with Guru Gobind Singh – he is a hero’s hero, an ascetic warrior, a monk king.” – Hindol Sengupta
“The Sacred Sword is an explosive and unputdownable historical fiction based on the king of kings, and the divinity of the enlightened teacher-Guru Gobind Singh.” – Priya Doraswamy, Lotus Lane Literary
“I am delighted to be publishing The Sacred Sword by Hindol Sengupta on the eve of Guru Gobind Singh’s 350th birth anniversary. Hindol is a prolific writer and this will be his first novel in which he will delve into Sikh history through the life of the legendary and brave warrior Guru Gobind Singh.” – Milee Ashwarya, Editor-in- Chief, Commercial and Business Books
About the author:
Hindol Sengupta is an award-winning writer, journalist, public speaker and social entrepreneur. He is the author of seven books. He is the youngest ever, and only Indian, to be nominated for the Hayek Prize given by the Manhattan Institute in memory of the Nobel laureate economist F. A. Hayek. He is the youngest winner of the PSF award for public service which has also been won, among others, by the late Indian President A. P. J. Abdul Kalam.
He is the founder of the not-for- profit Whypoll Trust. He was invited to present his research on Hinduism and technology at the XXI World Congress of the International Association for the History of Religion. An alumnus of the Australia-India Youth Dialogue (AIYD), he won the 2015 grant to write a people’s history of Indians in Australia and Australians in India. He was part of IdeaMensch’s 2012 list of 33 entrepreneurs who are making the world a better place to live in for his work on ideating India’s first women safety mobile app. He is Editor-at-Large for Fortune India where he writes on the political economy and entrepreneurship.
5 Gems from the Quran that you MUST read!

Bestselling author Anita Nair is out with her new book – the first ever collection of stories from the Quran. It features endearing characters like Muezza, the prophet’s favourite cat and Baby Jaan, a djinn in the form of a baby camel. The book has gorgeous artwork which makes it a must to show off on your shelves.
Our interest was captured from the beginning where a friendship is struck as Baby Jaan listens to Muezza’s mesmerizing tales. We couldn’t keep the enlightening nuggets of the Islamic lore all to ourselves so here are a few gems to take you through the coming week.





Has it grabbed your attention yet? Look no further, get your copy of this beautiful book here: http://bit.ly/GetMuezza

Anita Nair is a widely acclaimed novelist and the recipient of the Kerala Sahitya Akademi Award, 2012. Muezza and Baby Jaan is her latest book.
9 inspirational quotes from literature to start off the New Year
The start of the New Year is the best time to reflect on the year past and to make a new start, whether in your relationship, your career or even your health. That is why we bring to you nine quotes from literature, which we are sure, will motivate, challenge and inspire you in the new year.









Team Penguin wishes you a happy and bookish new year!
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10 Tips for Smart Managers for Success in an Information Age
Steve Jobs, one of the most successful technology entrepreneurs and executives, did not have a degree or background in computer science or programming. Steve is not alone; this is also true of many other “digital immigrants” who have made significant contributions to IT. If people without a technology background can be technology pioneers, such success should encourage everyone to embrace digital intelligence and use technology intelligently in business and life.
Sunil Mithas’ book is intended for general managers and students who want to improve their digital IQ. The book espouses the belief that digital intelligence is an important competence that global leaders need to have in today’s economy.
Here are ten tips from the book that pave the way for managers in our Information Age:
Synchronise IT and Business Strategies

Govern IT Effectively




Manage IT with Discipline



Grab your copy of Digital Intelligence here and get hold of the most basic competencies and skill sets for thinking about IT and IT-enabled changes that all managers should have.
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Take A Moment To Read This

How does it feel when a seemingly normal world around you was to go dark inch by inch? What would happen if someone who has not yet jumped out of his teens were to comprehend blindness that is closing in on him? How would you feel if suddenly you can’t walk normally or detect a stone or an open manhole in the middle of the street?
My book, “Lights Out”, published by Random House India which hit the book stores on Jan 10, deals with this rather difficult and challenging subject of my descent into blindness. Personally, the time of my life when I literally felt the world around me slip into darkness, was precious. Those are the only memories which represent vision or anything to do with seeing. If you tell me the colour of your shirt, I would go back in time and pull out the colour saved in my memory. If you describe the facial expression of a person, I would have to do the same: go back and think if what you describe resembles someone in my past. As a journalist, I try describing everything around me (obviously getting that described beforehand by someone who could see), and I am able to bring a touch of reality to it only because I was not blind years ago. In short, it is like the light at the entrance of a deep tunnel. Even though I am inside the darkness of the tunnel the beacon of light reminds me of a different world, a different time, and a different environment where I felt equal, respected and valued.
That might not sound right to you but it is true. Yes, thanks to the social attitude towards blindness, we don’t immediately feel a sense of belonging in most places, especially the ones which reminds us constantly of our inability to see. People regard and treat us differently which I sometimes find hurtful. On the other hand I also pity those who don’t have any experience of being with a blind person. I would like them to understand how strikingly chilling life could turn even for a normal individual. In fact, one need not be blind by birth to experience blindness, especially if he or she is afflicted with a progressive vision loss condition like Retinitis Pigmentosa.
Recollecting each tiny detail of that life was harrowing enough, but I wanted to live through those days because I realised there are thousands of such people in India alone who are silently going through a similar ordeal. I speak to them on the phone as a volunteer and a mentor. The realization that they are as helpless as I was twenty years ago and are incapable of leading a normal life saddens me.
How do I tell the world that these people need and deserve help? The only way I knew was by writing about it. Not an article or a report this time but a book. The book also shows the difficulties faced by the families of persons who lose their eyesight.
As for social attitude, I’m sure all of you know how much a blind person struggles to express his feelings to the normal world around him. In the course of my interaction with a fellow R.P and progressive vision loss patients, I realise many were not as lucky as I am in terms of finding an environment that allows them to lead a good life. So when you read my book, I would like you to think about the several unfortunate souls out there, living a traumatic life. Please spare a moment for such people and help them lead a normal life in whatever way you can.
If my books can elicit such a response from you it would fulfil my purpose of writing this book.
It is my sincere wish that R.P. becomes a subject of public discussion. We have been neglected and left to suffer in isolation for a long time now. The government, which pours thousands of crores of rupees into preventive eye care, does not spare a penny for people afflicted with conditions like RP. Sometimes they don’t even understand what is happening to them without proper medical attention. Without a system to rehabilitate themselves, they are potentially in a situation where they find it hard to make meaningful contribution to the country’s economic growth. Even if they are talented and skilled they will end up feeling useless and unworthy.
We cannot allow this situation to continue. It is time we put an end to the isolation or neglect of such people. I hope my book triggers similar thoughts in the readers.
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About the book
Imagine the world around you slowly blinking out, your familiar world disappearing into darkness till you begin to doubt not only the world’s existence but your own as well. In this terrifying blindness can you find the light?
This is L. Subramani’s inspiring story of triumph.
He suffers from Retinis Pigmentosa, a condition causing gradual and incurable blindness, which affects one in three hundred Indians. Lights Out shows with painful clarity the debilitating process of going blind and the agonisingly bewildering effect it had on him. In this unfamiliar and disconcerting situation he battles his disability to strive for normalcy, till he transforms his most crippling weakness into his greatest source of strength.
You could buy the book here: http://bit.ly/1lVtnM1
About the Author
L. Subramani is currently Senior Subeditor with Deccan Herald (The Printers Mysore Ltd) in Bangalore. He was affected with Retinitis Pigmentosa aged 18 and had to experience gradual loss of vision in two years, though the drastic vision reduction happened in a six month period, leaving him totally blind in the end. He is currently involved in setting up a support system for patients having rare disease or who experience progressive or sudden vision loss. He is doing this with the help of fellow RP patients and other social workers. He has pledged a portion of the proceeds of this book to his new initiative.
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Meet The Random House Authors At JLF 2014
We’re extremely thrilled as this Jaipur Literature Festival is going to see many authors of Random House! Here is a brief author introduction for you to know more about the Random House authors who will be gracing the event:
Jhumpa Lahiri – A British Indian novelist, she is the recipient of Guggenheim Fellowship. This Pulitzer Winner confesses to writing her recent book, ‘The Lowland’ in a brownstone in Brooklyn. She was also nominated for the Man Booker and the US National Book Award.
Jack Turner – Apart from being the author of the book, ‘Spice: The History of a Temptation’, Jack Turner is also the host of a television documentary show!
Jim Al-Khalili – Jim Al-Khalili is a professor of Physics at the University of Surrey and president of the British Humanist Association. He is also the author of ‘Paradox: The Nine Greatest Enigmas in Physics’.
K. Anis Ahmed – Apart from being an internationally renowned writer, Anis Ahmed is also the co-founder of ‘Bengal Lights’, Bangladesh’s most prominent new online English Literature journal.
Maaza Mengiste – An American-Ethiopian, Maaza Mengiste’s debut novel was selected by the Guardian as one of the 10 best contemporary African books. Most of the novel, ‘Beneath the Lion’s Gaze’ is based on the author’s own memories of the wartime in Ethiopia.
Nicholas Shakespeare – A British journalist and biographer, Nicholas Shakespeare has been the recipient of many awards. His recent novel, ‘Secrets of the Sea’, was a best-seller in Germany. He is a fellow of the Royal Society of Literature.
Otto de Kat – Otto de Kat is the pseudonym of Dutch journalist, poet, translator, editor and novelist, Jan Geurt Gaarland. His debut novel, Man in de verte (The Figure in the Distance) was published in 1998, followed in 2004 by De inscheper (Man on the Move) and in 2008 by Julia.
Raj Kundra – The businessman turned author’s journey to Nepal was a life changing experience for him as he discovered Pashmina Shawls there, which he imported to London! His excellent entrepreneurship skills led him to write the book, ‘How Not to Make Money’!
Ray Monk – A professor of Philosophy at the University of Southampton, Ray Monk writes biographies. He is the recipient of the John Llewellyn Rhys Prize and for ‘Ludwig Wittgenstein: The Duty of Genius’. His most recent work is based on Robert Oppenhiemer’s life.
Reza Aslan – An Iranian-American writer and scholar of religions, Dr. Reza Aslan is an Associate Professor of Creative Writing at the University of California, Riverside. He also put the argument about Jesus being White to rest by making a very interesting distinction between ‘Jesus’ and ‘Christ’.
Shereen El Feki – Shereen El Feki is a British journalist and author, who believes in studying society through sex, “because what happens in intimate life is shaped by forces on a bigger stage…” She is the author of ‘Sex and the Citadel: Intimate Life in a Changing Arab World’.
Vali Reza Nasr – Author of ‘The Dispensable Nation: American Foreign Policy in Retreat’, Vali Nasr is the Dean of the Johns Hopkins School of Advanced International Studies in Washington. He is an American academic and an author specializing in the Middle East and the Islamic world.
Xiaolu Guo – A Chinese British writer, Xiaolu Guo is also a film maker. In 2013 she was named as one of Granta’s Best of Young British Novelists.
A.N. Wilson – An English writer and newspaper columnist, A.N. Wilson’s books have won many awards. His book on Leo Tolstoy won the Whitbread Award for best biography of 1988.
Ananda Devi – Brought up in Mauritius, Ananda Devi has become one of the most prominent French writers of Mauritius and the Indian Ocean. She was made a ‘Chevalier des Arts et des Lettres’ by the French Government in 2010.
Carsten Jensen – This Danish author and political columnist’s most recent work is ‘We, the Drowned’. He is also the recipient of the Olof Palme Prize, among other prestigious awards.
David Cannadine – Sir David Nicholas Cannadine is a British Historian, who is best known for his book, ‘The Decline and Fall of the British Aristocracy’. He has been knighted to honour his contribution to education.
Geoff Dyer – An English writer and Journalist, Geoff Dyer, has published several award winning novels. His book, ‘But Beautiful: A Book About Jazz’ brought him fame and won him the 1992 Somerset Maugham Prize.
Nadeem Aslam – At 13, Nadeem Aslam published his first short story in Urdu in a Pakistani newspaper. His debut novel, Season of the Rainbirds (1993), set in rural Pakistan, won the Betty Trask and the Author’s Club First Novel Award. He has also been shortlisted for the DSC Lit Award which will be announced on January 18 at the JLF.
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This Literature festival will appeal to everyone’s palette! Writers from different walks of life and different genres are coming together in this magical literature festival to share their knowledge, to make something more of the world and for the world. So, do not miss out this exciting opportunity to meet your favourite authors and to get inspired!
Go random at JLF!
Four things Random House India brings for you at JLF 2014
Imagine the crowd roaring as the world’s eminent authors are ushered in. Imagine the hurried hush that would overtake the audience as their favourite authors step on the stage. This is what Jaipur Literature Festival is all about.
We are attending this literature festival with much enthusiasm. Here are four things we will be bringing to you from the Jaipur Literature Festival:
1. Meet Jhumpa Lahiri – Yes, she is coming to JLF for the very first time and we are extremely excited to hear her speak. After wooing us with her words in ‘The Lowland’ last year, she’s here to give an amazing start to 2014!
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2. Live tweets – We’re all geared up to tweet live from various sessions to keep the twitterati updated with the ongoings at JLF. So, even if you’re unable to join us at JLF, you can still catch the action live on Twitter at #randomJLF
3. Daily round-up blogs: Not just tweets, we’re also summarising the sessions as blog posts for our readers. So please, don’t sleep without reading our write-ups as we’d be sharing them every evening.
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4. Photos– We will bring you pictures of your favourite authors from the event! You won’t have to google their pictures anymore. We would click numerous photographs of the present literati and share them with you on our Facebook page and twitter.

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Attending the Jaipur Literature Festival is not only every reader’s dream come true, but it is also the most appropriate way for a book lover to start this New Year!
If you’re an avid reader, you’d simply love the aura that surrounds Jaipur for these 5 days and if you’re an aspiring writer, JLF may even inspire you to write your very first book. Last year, Nadeem Aslam became a source of inspiration for many aspiring authors when he narrated his story of getting published. Read here: http://penguinindiablog.wordpress.com/2013/01/27/the-blind-mans-garden-nadeem-aslam/
This year, you might just have your eureka moment at the JLF too. So book your tickets and go Random at Jaipur Literature Festival 2014!
The Diagnosis: An Extract from ‘Lights Out’ by L. Subramani

The doctor stares down at me with a bright instrument strapped to his forehead. He asks me to keep my eyes open, but the beam of light hitting my eyes hurt and pierces my pupils with the force of a bullet. I gasp. The examination is an unending torture that makes dilation seem like a pin-prick. The pain is continuous, unrelenting, and it almost pushes me to the threshold of tolerance. Just as my head starts to shake in pain and tremendous discomfort, a sharp snap of a switch puts out the source of my agony. A minute of blissful darkness follows, and I take a series of deep breaths to relax my stiff muscles and joints. I find it difficult to get up for a few more minutes, lying on the couch, unable to shrug off the paralysing effect of the examination.
Dr. Rakesh usually smiles when he speaks to me. He asks questions about a thousand trivial things just to divert my mind from the impending pain or the intensity of the test. Why didn’t he try any of these today, I wonder? Even now, as he is looking down at me, there’s no trace of a smile on his face.
‘Do you mind stepping outside for a while?’ I’ve never heard him sound so plain and cold.
‘You mean…outside this room?’
‘Yes. I’d like to have a word with your mother alone.’
The initial confusion gives way to shock and anger. What does this doctor think of me anyway? I’m 15, sport a moustache, and I am perfectly capable of being present in the room to listen to my own diagnosis. I have to blink many times before I can see the door to the waiting hall and pull its handle. The blast of light from the well-lit waiting room is enough to drive back the pain. Eyes firmly shut, I breathe deeply once again to relax my stiffening joints and trembling hands. Thankfully, I don’t spend too much time in finding the nearest chair.
It is almost five in the evening. The perfectly square waiting hall appears smaller, as a stream of patients walk in through the portico and mill around the reception desk to announce their arrival for an appointment. Before my thoughts drift in the direction of the eye problems that has brought so many patients to the clinic, I feel Dr Rakesh’s hand pressing on my shoulder. I tilt my head up to listen to what he has to say. ‘Just the usual tests my boy’, or ‘Nothing to worry about, or ‘Here’s your prescription, now go and get your new glasses,’ might have been nicer to hear.
But instead he asks me, ‘So, ready for school from tomorrow?’
There must be something more than that… I watch his face expectantly.
But the doctor merely pats my shoulder, mumbles a weak ‘good luck’, and walks back into his consultation room. I turn towards mother thinking that she has got a prescription for new glasses. It’s already past five and we must hurry to the optical stores to buy my favourite frame and place the order today. However, one look at her face, and I freeze in cold terror.
She’s crying. Tears stream down her cheeks. She’s crying in the full view of strangers, I realize with shock, something I have never seen her do before. ‘God, Ma! What happened? What did he tell you?’ I ask, unable to control my horror.
I shake her shoulders, ignoring the several heads that have already turned in our direction. ‘What’s happened? What did he say?’
‘He says… Oh god, what will I do?’
‘Ma… Please. Tell me what happened!’
‘He says you’re going blind.’
‘Blind? How? I can see now!’
‘He says you have a condition that will gradually make you go blind,’ she tells in a wheezy whisper, the shiny tears still rolling down her cheeks.
‘What!’
She wipes her eyes with a handkerchief, draws a deep breath, and says, ‘It’s a condition called Retinitis Pigmentosa. It’ll eventually make you blind.’
It is my turn to take a deep breath. ‘Okay Ma, okay. Let’s find out if there’s a cure for this condition. We can still do something about it,’ I say in a weak, unconvincing voice, and immediately receive the second blow.
‘Cure? No… He says there’s none.’
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About the book
Imagine the world around you slowly blinking out, your familiar world disappearing into darkness till you begin to doubt not only the world’s existence but your own as well. In this terrifying blindness can you find the light?
This is L. Subramani’s inspiring story of triumph.
He suffers from Retinis Pigmentosa, a condition causing gradual and incurable blindness, which affects one in three hundred Indians. Lights Out shows with painful clarity the debilitating process of going blind and the agonisingly bewildering effect it had on him. In this unfamiliar and disconcerting situation he battles his disability to strive for normalcy, till he transforms his most crippling weakness into his greatest source of strength.
You could buy the book here: http://bit.ly/1lVtnM1
About the Author
L. Subramani is currently Senior Subeditor with Deccan Herald (The Printers Mysore Ltd) in Bangalore. He was affected with Retinitis Pigmentosa aged 18 and had to experience gradual loss of vision in two years, though the drastic vision reduction happened in a six month period, leaving him totally blind in the end. He is currently involved in setting up a support system for patients having rare disease or who experience progressive or sudden vision loss. He is doing this with the help of fellow RP patients and other social workers. He has pledged a portion of the proceeds of this book to his new initiative.
























